Really Big Problem.

I am really so very touched. Everytime I get stressed out, there's somebody to remind me that they care! Like my friend Nana, she always takes the time to check on me and tell me things I need to know, it's like having my own little advice columnist! I'm really grateful that she's my friend--of course I'm grateful for all of my friends--because besides being sweet and kind, she is obviously a lot smarter than me! I had no idea that...oh, I guess you guys don't know yet...whoever's reading this. Here:

Hi Tohru, I'm sorry if I offended you. I really didn't mean to. Like I said, I didn't witness the event, and I don't know either of you in person, so I can't really know what happened. It's just that what you said scared me, what he did really isn't appropriate, and the way you phrased your entry it sounded like you were terrified. Either I misread it, or you need to work on how you say things.

Whatever though, I'm glad you're okay and that I was mistaken. I'd still advise you to be careful, though. The fact that you owe him for letting you live in his house doesn't mean that, if something more serious should happen, you shouldn't tell anyone. Parents do this to their kids, you know, and kids owe their parents everything. But if it happens it should go straight to the police.

Anyway I'm not saying he'll do anything. I'm really not. I just want you to have this information in your head, just in case he or anyone else ever tries to--I looked at your profile picture, and you're quite pretty, so I imagine you get a lot of random guys hitting on you in the street--I know I do! These friends of yours, Yuki and Kyo? They seem to want to protect you, so let them, okay? And you knowing how to punch is a really good thing, yay for Kyo for teaching you!

Okay, enough of this, I'm belaboring the point. How are you these days? Anything special going on? I'm personally finishing up school for the year, I've had a whole bunch of final papers and exams to keep me busy, which is why I haven't been able to reply for so long. Just two more tests and I'm done, though! (And packing and moving back home, but ACADEMICALLY...) Anyway, I hope everything's going well for you. Write me back when you can!




Yeah, I had no idea that parents did weird sex things with their kids. My mom never touched me funny at all, and I don't think my dad would have either! Of course I can't remember him very well, I was only two when he died...I think most of my memories of him are probably made up.

Well, it's been a looong week and I am so looking forward to Sunday which is, sadly, still a day and a half away. Of course I still have work on Sunday, but only for half the day, and I get to spend a lot more time with Shigure and Yuki and Kyou on Sundays, we've even been talking about going on a picnic! I'm really excited about that.

Well, I posted that other stuff yesterday, and I'm posting again today. I'm getting to be quite the blogger! I think that's what this writing stuff is called...I wonder if Shigure has a blog? I'd like so much to know his inner thoughts, but I doubt that he'd let strange people online know what he's really thinking. Shigure seems so mysterious, although he's also very friendly and outgoing. I can't imagine that he'd admit his true feelings, even in a private diary that nobody else could see. I wonder about him all the time. What is he thinking? What is he feeling? He confuses me sometimes. I'll think that he wants something but I don't know what that something is. I'm sure it's just because I'm too stupid to understand.

On a really, really bad note--I guess, honestly I'm not that happy at all, this is kind of ruining everybody's day--Hatori called a couple of hours ago and let us know that Akito is missing. Shigure and Yuki went over to the Main House to help look for him. He's been gone for almost two days now! We're getting really worried, Hatori says Akito has never disappeared for this long and that he has a really bad feeling about this. Me and Kyou aren't allowed on the main Souma property without special permission, which Akito hasn't given because Akito isn't around to give it.

I really hope he's okay. It scares me to try and think about what might have happened to him. Akito strikes me as being the very reliable type--I don't think it's like him to just up and disappear like that. And he's sick, besides. Shigure said that Hatori is a nervous wreck because Akito has gone too long without his medication--there is a very real possiblity that he is dead or dying right now. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. I haven't known Akito for very long and when we met he didn't seem to like me very much, but I have a feeling that he's not as bad of a person as he...well, he doesn't seem to be a bad person, I just think that people interpret him that way. Some people have trouble controlling their emotions is all, and Akito has suffered an awful lot. Imagine being sick and lonely and scared of dying your whole life long!

I really hope he's okay. I feel like I'm repeating myself. I'm just worried, and I don't really know what else to say but it kind of feels better to get these worried feelings out of me. I wish I could help go look for him. Hatori said he'd send for me and Kyou if things got urgent, whatever that means. Oh, well. I'm gonna go talk to Mom about this, maybe she'll know what to do.

Bye.